i had to go somewhere after my shift and i bumped a ladder in the stock room
for a second i hoped it would fall on me so i wouldn't have to
but not enough for pain next week
my best friend got in a fight with her mom while driving over a bridge
she said for a second she imagined turned the steering wheel i said that happens to me too
like a bad dream
you wake up thinking you completed
passing moments
i have no idea how close i am to the line
i started breaking out to the cold cream my grandmother gave me
but i have mixed feeling about throwing it away now that she's dead
a good dream for me is waking up thinking i solved a cold case
a bad dream for me is waking up thinking
my theoretical husband left me 'cause i have no maternal
instict its a bad dream
you wake up thinking you completed
passing moments
i have no idea
how close i am to the line
he said come here with a sigh with a sigh
i can hear in the way that you talk to your mom
its all coming down at the same damn time
driving up the exit ramp
the same three seconds of thinking that im going to die
'cause i can't remember a simple rule of yellow on the left and white on the right
one hundred and twenty two miles to my home town but i thought of it as a stop rather than a destination
i guess that means that ill be ok
but have strongly mixed feelings about leaving

i guess quarter life crises are better that mid life crises
because i have more life to live
than i have previously lived
but that doesn't mean anything because anyone could die at any time
for instance if you don't have your ladder locked or your car or your door
anyone could come
inside
it's a bad dream
you wake up thinking you
completed
passing moments
i have no idea how close i am to the line
it's a bad dream
you wake up thinking you
completed
passing moments
i have no idea how close i am to the line

he said come here with a sigh
with a sigh
its all coming down
at the same damn time
with a sigh
with a sigh